I know, it’s been a month, and I PROMISE I haven’t forgotten about you. Like all of us tend to experience from time to time, I’ve felt over worked, run down, and unmotivated lately. Even though we all have those periods of time in our lives, that’s no excuse for me to have become distant. Every single person that takes the time to read my blog is AMAZING to me, and I’m sorry that I haven’t been the greatest encourager lately.
First, I want to take a few minutes to say I love and appreciate every person who reads my blog posts! Without you, there would be no purpose for anything that I post, and for that I am truly grateful. I also am so appreciative of all the wonderful comments I receive, whether it is on social media, in person when I see you, or when you guys recommend my blog posts to other people. It completely blows my mind that so many people stand behind me and encourage me, and because of ALL of you, that is the reason I am here and that I am still moving forward!
I also wanted to share a personal struggle I’ve been having with all of you who decide to subscribe and receive this email. While the majority of people that I come in contact with are very supportive of me, I’ve come across a few people, a few of whom I actually look up to, who I could tell aren’t completely on board with what I’m doing. Me, being the crazy people pleaser that I am (Which I am definitely working on, and I know I need to stop caring so much about what others think), have let the thoughts and opinions of others make me take a step back and take a break for a while. Negative thoughts have come over me lately saying “Maybe you aren’t meant to do this,” or “Maybe you just aren’t mature enough for this right now.”
Granted, I am not completely mature. I don’t claim to hold all the wisdom in the world. I make mistakes, I’m human, and I will gladly sit down and tell you the mistakes that I make. I will tell you about how I fail God everyday and I will show you all of the ways the I need to improve myself, but that doesn’t mean that I have to give up what I know God has placed in my heart to do. I was created to be a writer. God speaks the words to me or gives me the subject or the situation, and I type the words. I’m simply his vessel.
Just because I’m a blogger, doesn’t mean I have my whole life together. I might write some great, encouraging posts sometimes, but NOBODY has any idea the struggle, the tears, the fears, and the battles that I fight behind closed doors to be able to write these things. I struggle to stay on the right track, just as all of us do.
I guess the point of me sharing my latest struggle with you is to show you that just because you are following the desires that God has given you, doesn’t mean everyone is going to be on board with you, and that’s okay. You’re always going to have critics. Jesus and the disciples received a lot of opposition for preaching the gospel, but they “rejoiced that they were counted worthy enough to suffer shame for his name….” (Acts 5:41-42)
It hurts a lot when people don’t support you and are critical of your dreams. It hurts even worse coming from someone you respect so much. It’s hard not to be a people pleaser. It’s hard to continue on “fighting the good fight” (1 Tim. 6:12) when it seems like you have so much opposition surrounding you. Don’t give in to what others “think” is right or wrong for you life. If God has ordained something, and if God has called you to do something, and if he continually opens doors for you and uses your talents for his glory, then that’s all that matters.
Galatians 1:10 (NIV) says:
“Am I now trying to win the approval of human beings, or of God? Or am I trying to please people? If I were still trying to please people, I would not be a servant of Christ.”
You cannot please both God and people at the same time. Be grateful for the people who love and support you, but stand firm on what you know to be true when it comes to those who are against you.
I hope that you were encouraged by this, and again, I am truly sorry for taking such long breaks! I will no longer allow the opposition to make me give up the dreams that God has placed inside of me. Most of all, I hope that you stand firm as well on the things God has called you to do. Don’t let fear, laziness, “what ifs,” or the opinions of others stop you from where God wants to take you!
Again, thank you all so much for your love and support, I can’t thank you enough!
(owner of atinywarrior.com)